Starting over

Today starts pretty much two months of torture.  I’ve got a job that has annoying hours, I’m finishing up my masters and I’m trying to train for a half marathon…oh and lose 25 pounds.  To some people that may not seem like a lot, but its stressing me out and that’s the last thing someone needs when they’re trying to lose weight.  But I’m going to try it anyway.  I’m going to go to the gym, even if I’m tired after a long day of work.  I’m going to study every spare minute that I can find and I will run the half marathon in March.  Inside I know, deep down, that I can do this, I’m just having some trouble right now believing in that.

Getting back on the wagon

Weight: 170.0 lbs

Goal Weight: 130.0 lbs

Getting back on the wagon never seems to be as easy as everyone says.  I feel like each time I fall off I gain more baggage to weigh me down and make it harder to climb back up.  Today it was the cupcake…

How is it that one baked good can get the better of me.  It’s incredibly small and insignificant, yet it possesses a power much greater than anyone would ever know.  It practically called my name as I was walking through walmart.  ”Jennifer, eat me!  You must have me!  You went to the gym, it will be okay to indulge a little.”  Ok, so maybe it didn’t do that, because its a cup-cake, an inanimate object incapable of speech.  I could even try to tell you that it magically transported itself into my basket, but we both know it didn’t do that.  I exerted energy to pick it up and say to myself, “its just a little cupcake and at $2.50 its a steal.”  What harm can there be in eating a cupcake anyway?

.. more harm than you could ever imagine …

You see by eating this one cupcake I am internally telling myself that its okay to splurge.  But even though I am a grown woman of 28 years, I haven’t mastered the willpower to overrule the cupcake.  I literally am at the mercy of the cupcake king and his evil minions.  If you’ve laughed so far and have any idea about what I’m talking about you are very familiar with the cupcake king’s minions.  But for those of you who don’t know I shall introduce you.  We’ll start out with one of his more innocent friends … Captain cookie.

Captain cookie, in all reality could be a dieter’s friend.  That is if we could eat just one.  But for some reason, I start with one frosted sugar cookie and before I know it I don’t know where the dozen has went.  Ok, I’ve never eaten a dozen frosted sugar cookies, but you get the idea.  Next up is the cookie’s evil cousin Duke Donut.

Duke Donut is probably the worst for me.  I don’t even like donuts, but I have one and I start to think, “these aren’t so bad.”  Before I know it I’ve had three.  Everywhere you go you are forced to do battle with Duke Donut.  He’s at the grocery store, the gas station, the car dealership and sometimes he even lures you into his own private bat cave disguised as a breakfast establishment that shall go unnamed.

There is a whole slue of minions that I just don’t have time to go into but they all lurk out there trying to get me to jump off the wagon one more time.  But I have news for you King Cupcake and your minions (especially you Sir Cheese Cake) you are going to tempt me less and less as I start to channel the thin girl inside me.  I really don’t need you and you’re going to lose your rule over me.  I will no longer be a loyal subject to your high calories and massive amounts of fat.  I am stronger than you and you are going down!

So instead of dwelling on the cupcake that I ate today (which probably has more WW points than I will ever want to calculate) I will focus on what I did well.  I got up and I attempted to plan a healthy breakfast and lunch.  I went to the gym and did a great cardio and strength workout.  I also came home and made a great dinner with plenty of leftovers to get me through breakfasts for the week.  I can do this, I know it won’t be easy but I can do it!